3/15/2014

yesterday:

Serpico Landscape truck parked by plum trees: serpico ~ serpent co’/yes ….: beside suggesting he wants to go to school Gia Ba?o also suggested in his serpentine [mu’a la^n; con ro^`ng; independent “pendulum waves”] way–“ca’i ddo’ la`/la`m gi` va^.y di` ba”, “ca’i na`y la` ca’i gi`”, “no’ o+? dda^u, la` gi`, ddi cho^~ na`o, ngon kho^ng, etc.”–“ta.i sao” which in turn suggests to to^nan [at the “Basil Leaf Restaurant” in Danville was the medusa-haired girl from PBS show Cyberchase, Bianca Degroat] the PBS show “Sidney” … “the kid who wants to know everything about everything” … which could be among the demands gia ba?o hinted at breakfast just before ba’c ty’ “blew” up at him in note 3.11.2014 … perhaps gia ba?o wants his own tv show … afterall ella has “dinosaur train”, audrey has “word girl”, di` ba honey have “peg and cat” which may actually be gia ba?o’s … while gecko and to^nan nullify their fever/cold and simulate normality by sunning by the pool …

di` ba co^ die^~m inquired how’s to^nan … fever and cold … at the same time….: someone name Mike… perhaps from San Jose …. movie Crocodile Dundee [anh Ki’nh to New York; Gia Ba?o to San Jose; CityStar rice dispenser] was on tv last night and di` ba moved ye^’n rice dispenser inside and used it … Mike telephoned … about the curtain … there was one two stories long he made for ddi.nh … it did not cover the middle of the two stories window looking out on purplish-red plum tree hoa anh dda`o when anh Anh and family was invited for la^?u …. one imagines “what more do you want from us? ….[after a long silent of deep thought that turns over the better of the arguments] … and then we guess we will love to help you some more …we do love you afterall … “

di` ba co^ die^~m said “chu’ kha said girls/women his age are too old”: translation “you can’t see yourself for what you are” … failure to see “in the image” … to^nan is thanh so+n [before supper to^nan would does house chores such as washing dishes and after supper he would watch porn and probably must have resembled, to outsider others, “pimps” … ] to^n an is ye^’n to^n an is gia ba?o to^n an is die^.p to^n an is die^~m to^nan is to^n ddi.nh …: when to^nan “blew” up on gia ba?o a couple of days ago, he should have “blew” his nose instead …. clean out his nose today from the dust on the fan in ye^’n and die^.p room that invaded when neighbor with german sheppherd walked into window’s view … also similar “blewing” occured in the past [lucky for everyone, to^nan does his own stunt “blowing” up and doing the bad parts while everyone else taste the good parts of to^nan’s past tie^`n …[to^nan has repeatedly reply no he does not want money/tie^`n per se he only wants “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” which might include provision of amount and form of tie^`n needed for “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” …] … Barbarra [to^nan’s advisor “Mike’s “wife] Streissand’s song “memory lights the corner of my mind what’s too painful to remember we simply tend to forget ….” …it’s the law … there might be Noble Truth of suffering but “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” will steer it toward the Noble Truth of wellness …] at fermilab brought up by dda.t about particle accelerator and fermilab chicago saying cern last experimental result was in doubt … : “we have seen the enemy and he is us”, Pogo …

moon: when we went to the dimsum place where/when waitress resembling co^ va^n “blew” up nearing hooter both di` ba and gia ba?o said “it [sky ~ tro+`i] so hot” today and to^nan turned his head upward and saw the moon … : thus by implication the moon ~ tra(ng ~ trang ~ p-age ~ peace age is so hot …: both the moon and the sun were out AT THE SAME TIME sharing the same clear/quang noon sky that day …. mother tells of anh Ba(`ng Tru’c chi. Trang … implication Quang how he taught tru’c thie^`n with an object on her head …

p-age peace age at the time of chicago fermilab shortly before the millenium celebration consists of abandoning then president ronald reagan pursuit of star wars and abandoning building the world’s largest particle accelerator in texas … because the moon ~ nga ~ russia had just then abandoned the berlin wall bringing it down and had reverted to the old three stripes flag instead of the hammer [gia ba?o “i’ve been working on the railroad”: tv mentions dde^`n/bu` THOR the hammer God … thun …. crocodile dundee …] and sickle flag …

p-age peace age at the time of now consists of the united states coming to the aid of the ukraine …. di` ba said metart is cheap not expensive … : eventually all “blew” will be converted/transformed will come to a more “proper” “hello” …

today:

mother suggests using to^nan’s own words [“dde^? nhu+ the^’ na`y ma` coi ddu+o+.c ma~i sao”] to to^n ddi.nh: “now is as good a time as any to kiss and make up and return to one another …” … we will be heading back to michigan in a short while … have recovered from fever and cold …. and feel like living together normally… so that it’s not ky`/strange to return since no walls have been built up due to deference higher than could be surpassed …. [ddi.nh song last night “feel like making love to you” …] …:

What happens to a dream deferred?

Does it dry up

like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore–
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over–
like a syrupy sweet?

Maybe it just sags

like a heavy load.

Or does it explode?

From the “Lenox Avenue Mural” section, the poem called “Harlem” by Langston Hughes:

to^nan recalls how gia ddi`nh ba’c Tue^. chi. Ha^n anh Vi~nh handles “living together” …. to^n an observes that when relatives from either sides of the family visit–be it chi. Ha^n’s family, parents, brothers, sisters or be it anh Vi~nh’s family, brothers, sisters, in-laws–they usually would retire each to their separate room giving one another plenty of space then would meet together for communal activities such as breakfast, lunch, supper, going out, play games, watching tv/dvd, etc. …. and then would retire again to their individual personal space … and ba’c Tue^. is often the first one to do so …. while they try to accomodate guests of the family –such as us to^nan and his parents– if any … so for to^nan’s part, he is sorry [sorry = sore + y(ou): literally he has just got over fever and cold] about it all … to^n an apologizes to gia ba?o ye^’n die^.p di` ba all the huy`nh and to^n ddi.nh and everyone else… and so may “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” … and so may “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” …

to^n ddi.nh made us “pasta” today … express pronto … transport back to alex tribuzio in michigan but his hitting the door bell button multiple times suggests the guy resembling silvester [HBO movie “mr and mrs smith” unbeknownst to them they are out for one another even though husband and wife ….: unbeknownst to gia ba?o he threatens his mother and father and therefore he threatens himself when he threatens ba’c ty’ or others ….[go.i ca? ho. ha`ng nha` ba’c ty’ ra ma` chu+?i:

chu’ Hoa`ng & father and brothers ..Minnesota & Chicago & Auburn Hills …. temperatures there were colder than anywhere else in the world …

mother … voodoo monkey doll … though sometimes gia ba?o acts out as audrey thie^n hu+o+ng with “blue doggy” …

ni su+ Vie^n Lu+o+ng … death threat …

co^ Hie^n … ashthma while visiting vietnam … returning 3/17/2014 …

co^ Be^ …

Scary sight: Airplane loses wing panel during Orlando-Atlanta flight

17/03 11:43 CET

http://www.euronews.com/2014/03/17/scary-sight-airplane-loses-wing-panel-during-orlando-atlanta-flight/ long before Malaysia Flight Missing there were rumbles in the TV news about skins coming off airplanes and other related airlflight scares …

] … for instant/immediate gratification … [which underlies Noble Truth “blew-ups” and immediate gratification is contagious, ba’c ty’ found that he’s completely depleted–to the point of forgetting {or, rather, turn the other cheek to not turn the other cheek because it exists and it’s Noble Truth of suffering if not Noble Truth of wellnes: 3/19/2014 yesterday white and brown horse out on the hills at supper time “tro+`i dda^’t o+i …” … simulating audrey and vietnamese movie “o^’i tro+`i o+i …” ….truly whether they fight one another or are at peace with one another God of the sparrow provides for everyone including provide for everyone each a correct reason … no one’s on the bottom and no one’s on top if only they can see it from God’s point of view … so may “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well”} Christian “turn the other cheek” or Buddhist “non-attachment tra’nh tham sa^n si” as di` ba’s video says– of all the stored up “ta^.p luye^.n vo~ {gia ba?o pronounces it do~} co^ng” to keep eye on the ball/target to aim higher to strive for “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” ] … thus for example his ba`y ve~ so+n without cleaning up threatens his mother by favoriting his father so+n …: that’s how seemingly {seemingly: the intense jealousy is there all the time but … if everyone turns the head away to not see/hear/say to think clearly then … the child demonstrated that it’s not his and ba’c ty’ could verify for himself that it’s not ba’c ty”s either … there’s no obvious reason for jealousy becaues everyone got plenty of everything … everyone’s well provided for … child got all the toys and food and time with parents as other child his generation … ba’c ty’ got all the details planned out for him such as screws/washers under chairs three solar lights, bosch/boch dishwasher/sandbox … etc. …. but e.g. ba’c ty’ got jealous of child’s jacket so child threw jacket in ba’c ty’s way as though he could read ba’c’s mind … and when ba’c assumes child’s man of the world pose he realizes that it’s not what he want at the bottom … which is “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” …: and yet in the past or tie^`n–and in the space-time continuum, tie^`n or past or future tu+o+ng lai where tu+o+ng ~ dream is other people in the present–ba’c Ty’ had wanted the girls’ attention as gia ba?o had wanted milk as gia ba?o etc. if not now … and yet in the past tie^`n implicitly if not explicitly as now also was the want of “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well”} “in need” …{which could be the cause for jealousy} …. cannot ignore or let go … contrasting tinman in song by the band “america” … the child is … song “love child” … “cha me. sinh con tro+`i sinh ti’nh” … to cha^’n an assure and becalm others father sometimes cite the fact that he and his brothers and sisters–similar to the Huy`nh siblings–were bereaved of grandfather o^ng no^.i ty. early then have to immigrate from the north and become refugee in the south and yet everyone turn out all right without any “adult” supervision/teacher… they “[an]tie^m/chi’ch” themselves … … which is not to say they were “ma^’t da^.y” “uneducated” as they “educate” themselves without any teachers …

The Zombies “Time of the season” versus Pink Floy “dark side of the moon’s ‘the wall'” … “Great Expectation” “Portrait of the artist as a young man” {3/16/2014 girl with 1 corinthian 13 tattooed on her arm at babies r us: yeah children are vindicated! or vindication of children/everyone

John Lennon’s jealous-yet-well-provided-for “ma^’t da^.y” song …

Nobody [“bie^’t tha^n pha^.n” ~ “know your lot/parents/ancestors/self” ~ “not jealous”] told [teach, show, educate, etc.] me there’d be days like these

Strange days indeed
strange days indeed.
Everybody’s runnin’ and no one makes a move [3/16/2014: ye^’n and “tu+” ~ co^ hie^n resemblance as well as u’ ly` and black groom at babies r us: TV’s “sex in the city” star …]

Everyone’s a winner
and no one seems to lose. [3/16/2014 vindictive/vindicated children at babies r us]
There’s a little yellow idol to the north of Katmandu.
Everybody’s flying and no one leaves the ground

Everybody’s crying and no one makes a sound.
There’s a place for us in movies you just gotta stay around.

Nobody told me there’d be days like these

} movies “Van Wilder II” and “Across the universe” …

3/20/2014 dancing with the stars with landau …here’s john michael montgomerry’s “ma^’t da^.y” song … abba “take a chance on me” at marshall …

Life’s a dance, you learn as you go.
Sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow.
Don’t worry ’bout what you don’t know,
life’s a dance, you learn as you go.

The longer I live the more I believe
You do have to give if you wanna receive.
There’s a time to listen, a time to talk.
And you might have to crawl even after you walk.
Had sure things blow up in my face,
Seen the longshot win the race.
Been knocked down by the slammin’ door.
Picked myself up and came back for more.

[3x Chorus]

Life’s a dance
Life’s a dance
Life’s a dance
Take a chance on love
Life’s a dance
you learn as you go
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/johnmichaelmontgomery/lifesadance.html

] stallone at hardware store who blocked the way of us browsing and forgetting to get a silver button signifying “ba.c lie^u” … doctor Chen … di` Ba … chu’ Hoa`ng and his heart … instead of the gold button at the center … …:

http://images.orgill.com/200×200/7225337.jpg

to^n ddi.nh said “she’s my wife” [when to^nan citing his name “nha^.t” to express how he felt explicitly about thanh so+n ye^’n die^.p gia ba?o] suggesting “they are my family [too]” … and to^n ddi.nh seems to have become positively attached to Gia Ba?o … cannot do without him … he cheers up to^n ddi.nh … in the same manner that audrey thie^n hu+o+ng cheers up ba’c ty’ …

ddi.nh uprooted the maple–near the plum tree near where the serpico truck parked– that was in the way of conduits … and planted other trees …va(n telephoned earlier … movies van wilder 2 rise of taj …, across the universe …

http://www.loc.gov/rr/program/journey/hughes-transcript.htmls

3/13/2014

yesterday:

di` ba burned our toasts on on the toaster oven’s grill before going to san jose to visit gia ba?o ..

stay home all day to clean the grill and clean the alleyway with gardening and swimming equipments …: neighbor hood girl sings “no” and “you better let it go …”

di` ba returned with pho+? … said gia ba?o declined to “come up” … when invited … and di` ba went with to^n ddi.nh to babies r us to order crib and bedding …

TV news “its economy slows down ad Copper prices fall in China …” … viettoday coupers/cops are ye^n/an … HBO movie “Problem Child” ….

finally got “Power Ranger Shinkenger” dvd ordered some months ago from singapore …. father’s dvd “ngu+o+`i dda`n ba` ye^’u dduo^’i” also arrived … with every one “in the news” currently on its roster …. huy`nh ddi.nh phu+o+ng etc.

externally very quiet …. internally tinges–song “tainted love”–of sadness tried to creep in and to^nan attempted to shue them away by physical labor and by staying up nearly all night until 4:30am trying to “tinker” with operating system development …

today:

“saved” a worm [were “m”] from hot tub …[gia ba?o supposedly saved mcherry from the pool]: german “Hach” water testing equipment have arrived for a while …

father and chu’ Ha^n telephoned “… well, if you tell/report/khai to them you love porn/women/the-crazy/u+o+ng/the-shakes then of course the doctor(s) will prescribe to you precisely those things that you love ….”: “you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone” with different twists … instead of not “knowing” these days to^nan knows –tri thie^n me^.nh ho+i so+’m–of course that everything is precious and everything must be loved and everything must strive for “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” … so because of that the same experience is twisted into “to^nan has to earn/learn/ it ….: … before Millenium Celebration, there were no 10 commandment violations in computer operating systems and there were moments when everyone immediate to to^nan were rather well and would have live very long … but that constantly seems far from being the case currently … and that is what is gone and what is longed for … it longs for muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well …. it is as though to^nan was allowed a taste … for educational purposes or what not [in vietnam he was allowed a taste nearly of everything …tropical fruits, vegetables, fancy sweets/ etc … [nowaday … porn .. women … children …] as if so that he would “know” them … so that there would have been no dramatic surprises …le^n voi xuo^’ng cho’ … so that everyday can be dda.m and dda.t ddi’ch … though Noble Truth people would side with Shania Twain ..

You’re a regular original, a know-it-all
Oh-oo-oh, you think you’re special
Oh-oo-oh, you think you’re something else

Okay, so you’re a rocket scientist [empty space ~ non-dramatic dda.m ddi’ch: di` ba said baby must kick around a certain amount otherwise the baby would have to go to the doctor … her “dolly” “dahlia” … seems as though gia ba?o and ba’c ty’ took all the attention and time away from “dolly” “dahlia” … though of course gia ba?o did kiss di` ba’s tummy and therefore “dolly” “dahlia” …di` ba mention something resembling mcherry … so far so good siblings scramble for attention/time and earning/learning about one another in the process…did some 15-20 times in 10 minutes … slightly more than the average … and of course everyone’s heart dramatic pulses up and down all around le^n voi xuo^’ng cho’ as a matter of course …and therefore since heart ~ life one surmises that both non-drama and drama are essential parts of life … being grounded in essential differences … everyone is difference from everyone else … and difference is drama … a part of life and muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well … ]
That don’t impress me much
So you got the brain but have you got the touch
Don’t get me wrong, yeah I think you’re alright
But that won’t keep me warm in the middle of the night
That don’t impress me much

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/shaniatwain/thatdontimpressmemuch.html

… but he’s never allowed addiction or preference to develop … and allowed usually only once or twice …. fair sharing/equalizing of experience with other children/adults in the same country of the same resources … di` trinh resemblance applying for a job at hokuna japanese garden was given a lecture about “time sharing” … computer made it appear as though it serves everyone by the use of taking turns or thay phie^n … anyway, “absence makes the heart fonder” is also “absence helps replenish what was consumed on feeding/eating/contact” … allow time and space for the tropical fruits/foods, sweet treats, etc. to grow back … what is “staple” is muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well ….] … of muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well … but he could not keep them unless he exerts a manual effort–chu’ ha^n telephoned 12:26pm 3/13/2014–to re-create it … to re-create muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well …

3/11/2014

yesterday: monday blues …. [by the way, there were times past where to^nan never have the monday blues originating from the drama of the work pattern of americans … monday angst friday and the weekend down the path of letting go partying until nausea …then monday blues pays off consequences of partying until nausea …: to^nan never experience the monday blues thence because he continue to work one way or another by never letting go of the focus/aim …. such as the aim for “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” …] … cleaning the dust laden fan of ye^’n and die^.p’s room and washing their carpet …

to^nan said of gia ba?o tha–similar to how gia ba?o snuff out the ant …. shark on finding nemo don’t eat other fish in nature unless they are hungry and/or the other fish is bleeding and would suffer less if eaten– to^nan prefers “nature” over “nurture” …. that to^nan would rather that gia ba?o is ngoan ngoa~n by himself naturally rather than having to be “schooled” … such as by americans or by mexicans …. kho^n ngoan dda’ dda’p ngu+o+`i ngoa`i ga` cu`ng mo^.t me. cho+’ hoa`i dda’ nhau … citing how thie^n hu+o+ng shed “misbehaving” [her bicycle] around the american “mike” seems doesn’ t even dare to look at him straight in the face .. . or how mexican flores teaches tate and ella how to create a mess ba`y ve~ then afterward to clean up the mess they’ve just made … but, of course, “nature” over “nurture” is not the only one for the american and the mexican …. some form of avoiding jealousy and/or ta^m/trinity/conscience fulfillment with other members of the family or of society or something other might be behind it all …

shades of thu and va(n divorce: blew up on to^n ddi.nh [‎3/‎25/‎2014 it’s been coming: di` ba co^ Die^~m said how chi. hai in vietnam had just bought a new house and everyone did such a good job of maintaining it “goes to show you that when people realizes that it’s theirs, they don’t mind cleaning up and maintaining it” … also bought toilet bowl cleaner for ye^’n and die^.p’s bathroom … tv or media must have suggested “give a man a fish you can feed him for one night; give a man a fishing rod and teaches him to fish and you can feed him forever” …] what “mac daddy” and “dda.t” [3/25/2014 who is suggestive of Pak Ming Ho: to^nan blew up on way to Chicago shortly before graduation for the millennium celebration: new York city world trade center blew up when to^nan visited there and after he left it] blew up on us at the bars in walnut creek … what waitress at dimsum place blew up on to^nan…. “he’s a pimp” “are you gone live like this together” …. “tu+” Die^.p might have suggested she “blew” also in various shades of meaning … to^n and treats everyone from presidents to common man/woman from all parts of life pretty much the same “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” … but in the following terms: “take time to make time: if they use the bathroom they should spend 5 minutes on it and to^nan will spend 5 minutes or more to match …” …. all fit gia ba?o anyway who has a tough decision if indeed he would stand up to his name of gia ba?o … in that ba’c ty’ thanh so+n ye^’n di` ba “tu+” etc. all should be kept in their proper places for the “gia” of gia ba?o …

today:

“saved” a worm [were “em/m”] from hot tub …  : german “Hach” water testing equipment have arrived for a while …

gia ba?o expressed he misses school … this that and other things …

[3/19/2014 need for or existence of boundaries/soul/seol:

Programmer’s Reference Manual suggests that protected mode implement various “stack-like” structure for push-pop-ing protected structures via descriptor tables such as GDT, IDT, etc.

; SAFEWAY grocery …

%macro SAFECALL 1

; cmp SP, stacksegment

; jl safecallinterrupt

; safecallinterrupt int 5

bound SP, stacklowerbound + 4 + 4 ;

call %1

%endmacro

%macro SAFEPUSH 1

; cmp SP, stacksegment

; jl safecallinterrupt

; safepushinterrupt int 5

bound SP, stacklowerbound + 4 + 4 ;

push %1

%endmacro

%macro SAFEPOP 1

; cmp SP, stacksegment

; jl safecallinterrupt

; safepopinterrupt int 5

bound SP, stacklowerbound + 4 + 4 ;

pop %1

%endmacro

%macro SAFERET 1

; cmp SP, stacksegment

; jl safecallinterrupt

; saferetinterrupt int 5

bound SP, stacklowerbound + 4 + 4 ;

ret %1

%endmacro

]

blew up on gia ba?o …. what to^nan blew: “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” … which is what to^nan tried to shore/store up all night along with the many trips to the bathroom last night … “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” … evident of blew/spent it all is that blewing “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” on gia ba?o and gia ba?o had left the house his could felt his energy is no longer concentrated as efficiently or effectively on “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” …

after getting a blood test die^~m bring gia ba?o to san jose and said her family won’t be coming back …. ddi.nh said she cried all night –to^nan went to the bathroom starting when the frogs yelled and wished “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” all night” …

clean stairway …

anh ddo^’ng telephoned mother ….

thanh so+n did help us wash dishes after supper … and ye^’n and die^.p did put up with sleeping in room with fan full of dust for many days … gia ba?o had his mother at night and his father on the weekend and 5-6 hours evening everyday … other children’s parents work all day sometimes all week without seeing them and at proper age they are in school all day … gia ba?o had same amount of toys as dda.t’s child as tate and ella as thie^n hu+o+ng …

Lyrics to Love Child :

by The Supremes

You think that I don’t feel love
But what I feel for you is real love
In other’s eyes I see reflected
A hurt, scorned, rejected
Love child, never meant to be
Love child, born in poverty
Love child, never meant to be
Love child, take a look at me
I started my life
in an old, cold run down tenement slum
My father left, he never even married mom
I shared the guilt my mama knew
So afraid that others knew I had no name
This love we’re contemplating
Is worth the pain of waiting
We’ll only end up hating
The child we maybe creating
Love child, never meant to be
Love child, scorned by society
Love child, always second best
Love child, diff’rent from the rest
Mm, baby
I started school,
in a worn, torn dress that somebody threw out
I knew the way it felt, to always live in doubt
To be without the simple things
So afraid my friends would see the guilt in me
Don’t think that I don’t need you
Don’t think I don’t wanna please you
No child of mine ‘ll be bearing
The name of shame I’ve been wearing
Love child, love child, never quite as good
Afraid, ashamed, misunderstood
But I’ll always love you
I’ll always love you
I’ll always love you
I’ll always love you, you, you

http://www.lyricsmania.com/love_child_lyrics_supremes_the.html

3/13/2014 di` Ba did laundry today and assume Gia Ba?o’s job of throwing toys–in this case railroad sections–everywhere in the house …. or at least in the laundry …

To^nAn had no problem with Gia Ba?o messing up but perhaps if Gia Ba?o plays cool in the balance clean up also … obama … cover both father and mother… and in fact To^nAn observe that toys do get put away … whether by Gia Ba?o or not is unclear but they do get clean up and not by him … so … someone is “balancing” …

and the ‘balancing’ is external evidence of to^nan, and gia ba?o and di` ba and thanh so+n and ye^’n and “tu+” and “honey” and “ba`” that all along everyone had meant well … everyone had aim/meant for “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” …

“Baby Love”

Ooh baby love, my baby love
I need you, oh how I need you
But all you do is treat me bad
Break my heart and leave me sad
Tell me, what did I do wrong
To make you stay away so long

‘Cause baby love, my baby love
Been missing ya, miss kissing ya
Instead of breaking up
Let’s do some kissing and making up
Don’t throw our love away
In my arms, why don’t you stay?

Need ya, need ya
Baby love, ooh, baby love

Baby love, my baby love
Why must we seperate, my love
All of my whole life through
I never loved no one but you
Why you do me like you do?
I get this need

Ooh, ooh, need to hold you
Once again, my love
Feel your warm embrace, my love
Don’t throw our love away
Please don’t do me this way
Not happy like I used to be
Loneliness has got the best of me

My love, my baby love
I need you, oh how I need you
Why you do me like you do
After I’ve been true to you
So deep in love with you

Baby, baby, ooh till it’s hurtin’ me
Till it’s hurtin’ me
Ooh, baby love
Don’t throw our love away
Don’t throw our love away
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/supremes/babylove.html

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3/10/2014

yesterday: lunch at yuc pho+? place …. child in red and blue cried to stop to^nan from eating further … she’s a combination of thanh va` he^` …. grace and funny … as the people who wore red and dark similar to her that came into the restaurant seem to have that in common with her …

“grace and funny” is “gravity and grace” …. : ca^.u Nghie^m co^ Va^n cu. La.c and whether or not they will attend wedding of U’ Ly` U’ Linh …

3/9/2014

yesterday:

dda.t stays the night …

dda.t and ddi.nh played bob segar cd about staying:  ye^’n stays home all day today because of cough …

on way to san jose for breakfast: license plate getpcpr … i can(‘t) see you …

Ba’nh Cuo^’n Ba(‘c Ninh: reunion of some sort … ba’c tue^. resemblance co^ be^ resemblance …. “y chang/trang” … die^~m said she could clean out room of ye^’n and die^.p for when co^ be^ comes to visit … ceiling fan carpet etc…. mi resemblance met at the door etc. … supposedly anh ki’nh came back to michigan and so ba’c tue^. invited father over for supper anh nha^n chi. mai was also there … gia ba?o did not have any …: mo` cua ba(‘t o^’c video probably same one at pho+? ha(`ng in michigan on television monitor … city scape and karaoke on boat cruises probably on the other television monitor with singer resembling ye^’n facially expressing probably “I’m afraid I’ve come to love you….” ..

neignboring at&t or some telephone store sign: one big happy family …

while dda.t conversed about unionizing, people on street suggesting to be fair to all ddu+`ng ca` cho+’n such as not to forget even though no longer used:

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while mother went home with die^~m and gia ba?o supposedly after visiting hu+o+ng lan and lee sandwich … went to saratoga …. toga suggests greek toga … ye^’n in white t-shirt … ecllipse sign in store window or car label …

You’re so vain
You probably think this song is about you
You’re so vain
I’ll bet you think this song is about you
Don’t you? Don’t you?

Well I hear you went up to Saratoga
And your horse naturally won
Then you flew your Lear jet up to Nova Scotia
To see the total eclipse of the sun

Well, you’re where you should be all of the time
And when you’re not you’re with
Some underworld spy
Or the wife of a close friend
Wife of a close friend, and….

You’re so vain
You probably think this song is about you
You’re so vain
I’ll bet you think this song is about you
Don’t you? Don’t you?

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to visit hakone japanese garden where movie “Memoir of a Geisha” was supposedly filmed and met two vietnamese women in a’o da`i one from vietnam one from america and their guy filming they went out to the parking lot and came back later in american clothing … a blond child before them luckily figured out how to get past the turnstile after putting in money the first time and failing to get through by turning the turnstile backward half way stepping through the crack which to^nan promtly helped the vietnamese who tried to come back from the parking lot … to^n ddi.nh and to^n an went to the pooping at the toilet at the gate of the garden … thus note 3.1.2014 not invading air space of japanese garden with our poop …. thus suggesting that the a’o da`i or vietnam were associated with toiletry … when she changed a’o da`i to american garment we changed from having stomach full of poop to stomach empty of poop … she attempt to translate “oe.” at Lions Gate Plaza on Te^’t to “a change of dress from vietnamese to american when we will get back to Michigan from Californina” … to^nan ate huye^’t or coagulated jellied blood at An Nam restaurant across bobo near grand century mall and did not throw up or “oe.” … san jose is well loved … hope it will get more rain along with other localities … reception place reminded to^nan of some chu`a in vietnam and “a(n co+m chu`a” or “free lunch” … and winery at top of mountain that can survey the whole valley including san jose below … instead of Mendelssohn’s “Wedding March” from A midsummer night’s dream

, John Phillip Soussa red white and blue “the stars and the stripes forever” march music greeted us [when johnny came marching home: previously marching with gia ba?o and elsewhere]…

 

 

 

 

… there was a wedding there while we sample the wine to the tune of stevie wonder song superstition etc. … bartender woman was associated with eve or serpent tempting us adams …. ta^m resemblance stare into space with her silver glassy eyes “you have never know a woman have you” ….true without proper knowledge of her sit’s all in my imagination … right now I favoritely imagine “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” … saw termite design .. ddi.nh pointed out termite effect of wall design … man in leather with woman in leather “I thought I know her but I guess not …” …  johnny we hardly know ye because you are in your Middle Path of see/hear/say no evil; have eyes/ears/mouths but as though cannot see/hear/say ….the  frogs explain ….song “i’ve looked at clouds from both sides now and still somehow it’s cloud’s illusions i recall, i really don’t know cloud” … neighboring table has two couples blond … suggestive of turnstile child and brunette and two free or unattached people sitting across from one another … one was a sexless bu.t guy and one was a seemingly brooding but seem confuse … girls have menopause to consider though superman guy goes for eternity for forever … girl suggestive of either lori from randall michingan ann arbor or ye^’n … thus the unattached bu.t guy must have corresponded to thanh so+n … british guy looked over shoulder … girl from wedding had “thank” sign but when she flipped it upside down we went home …. get some refreshment …3/9/2014 yesterday sign on toilet at refreshment place in saratoga “wait 30 seconds between flushes”… “got sand?” and “highlander” and gia ba?o resembling man and woman resembling mother went shoulder to shoulder if not hand in hand across street …

 

mother stayed home and sew on new singer machine clothing for ddi.nh and die^~m expecting baby … co^ tu’ telephoned amazingly enough without any repression of anger … father telephoned …

ye^’n and die^~m made supper of boiled shrimp and asparagus beef … while to^n ddi.nh and dda.t went to attend seminar or some such from some national geographic photographer near hospital in walnut creek …

3/7/2014

yesterday:

home alone with mother … di` ba supposedly went to do health insurance for di` tu+ while gia ba?o supposedly went to le^ duye^n with his mother and di` tu+ ..

evening: HBO is showing TV-MA shows earlier than usual … about 9:00pm… just when thanh so+n brought gia ba?o home … cat house menage a` trois …

viettoday show on raising fish: it’s a never-ending no-let-up struggle of feeding/eating ca’ lo+’n a(n ca’ be’ … work out your salvation with diligence …

today:

very early di` ba brought gia ba?o along with her to do some paperwork and won’t be back until lunch time for dimsum …

ye^’n got sick overnight coughing coughing coughing and she’s so athletic so fit …

share ba’nh bao and ba’nh bo` from 99 ranch …

“cu`ng mo^.t nha` ca? ma` …”

“kho^n ngoan ddo^’i dda’p ngu+o+`i ngoa`i, ga` cu`ng mo^.t me. cho+’ hoa`i dda’ nhau” …

“tu+” di` Die^.p suggested “how about ba’c ty’ going back to vietnam with her for a visit in a few days for a few months …”: le^~ la` ta?o mo^. ho^.i la` dda.p thanh ….: thanh minh … explain/clarify intelligence …. intelligent explanation/clarification …
supernovah.com: our dimsum server/waitress resembling di` va^n ~ cloud must have “blew up” how her hands shook as though in anger… when to^nan requested porridge instead of having regular dimsum that was on the table …. dimsum ~ gia ba?o ~ to^nan ~ nha^.t tha(ng ~ ngo.c loan …threaten voodoo cu. la.c ….whole peanut on floor being stepped on split into two so gia ba?o placed his microphone there when ba’c ty’ has one bite of dimsum placed on his plate while he was in toilet other than porridge and vegetable … to^nan blew up “are you people stupid or something su+o+’ng ma` kho^ng bie^’t su+o+’ng…. i can voodoo cu. la.c if you really really want me too …” …. tried to get some chocolate bars at joann fabric … tried to get some nuts and granola bars at target.com …. “co’ ddo’i kho^ng ….” …. kinh te^’ economic in note “making a difference”: di` ba drove passed retirement home on the right hand side and gia ba?o said “reversed what I said [with microphone]…” meaning “veto on that voodoo cu. la.c” … : john gardner’s “sunlight dialogue” was put in last night or so in previous notes … too much sunlight today 60 deg F and going up … and the tv said that california rain season usually ends in april and it’s already march 7 …. could really really have used some more rain wizardry/witching … di` Die^.p’s used a paper cup that says “repeat” and spotted “do it again ” or “one more time” or some such … hence seeming anger of di` va^n ~ cloud resemblance should really really be interpret as love as trying to make love … dda.t came for supper giving ddi.nh’s headphone resembling one of luna lee on the gaygeum associated with rain witching previously and we went out to walnut creek for beer where episode at dimsum lunch was repeated in much less harsh words with lots of chi. phu+o+ng resemblances at the neighboring table … near the heater we near the fireplace as previous notes on rain witching …. dda.t and “mac daddy” mentions seeds flown from farm to farm …. maybe cloud seeding some rain …

tv forecast slim chances of having normal amount of rain though the season doesn’t end until april … : it took only 2-3 days of continuous rain to produce the effect below … the ground is still wet from it 3/9/2014 yesterday sign on toilet at refreshment place in saratoga “wait 30 seconds between flushes”… …. 3/9/2014 yesterday sign on toilet at refreshment place in saratoga “wait 30 seconds between flushes”…  already though what rain that came seem sufficient to jump start spring or for semblance of normality …… thus an extra 2-3 days of rain in the future does not seem an impossible/unreasonable request/hope/ …

 

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3/6/2014

yesterday:

tv: problems with phu+o+ng hu+o+’ng or some such: target chief resigned … gas [guess] explosion in development … crypto virus that encrypt victim’s files and demand ransom… etc.

da(‘t di`u nhau va`o dde^’n ca` [cho+’n] mau: went with “tu+” Die^.p to 99 ranch … she drove to^nan in her honda … so many crossroads for her it seems … though all the crossroads lead to the same … “tu+” did not stop at stop sign … “tu+” Die^.p blew lots of money on nothing … ba’nh bao ba’nh bo` –where to^nan bought the orchid whose inside roots have rotted or about to rot though the flowers are still quite showy with 3 yet to bloom … it is suggestive that these orchids in tight pots with roots wrapped around one another are only for show for a certain period of time kho^ng thu+.c lu+. thu+.c ta^m thu+.c tri’ …to^nan’s toothache … ca’i ra(ng ca’i to’c la` go’c con ngu+o+`i … –crab chicken leg blue cheese dressing sea weed salad and lottery ticket … contemplating whisky … child wearing t-shirt with some design on chest that suggests to to^nan cpu … guy mentions if anyone knows of miso japanese soup base thus give rise to suggestion for to^nan also cpu …. thus to^nan said it’s all your people’s fault to^nan was simply living in the moment in the present moment trying to appreciate the day but you people are cheering him on to write code for new operating system instead of living in the moment … with application to chu’ hoa`ng’s reporting heart problem yesterday or day before yesterday .. . so to^nan readjust his heart right there and then for the people to see how it’s not concentrated/focussed on cpu or operating system but on “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well …

da(‘t di`u nhau va`o dde^’n ca` [cho+’n] mau: ddi.nh and die^~m teenager neighborhood boy checks under the hood his custom truck …. : yesterday at walnut creek though it was twilight and the streetlights have come on, to^n an though he spotted a bus with the advertisement “we don’t consider stale pretzels a meal” before going to supper at “the door” restaurant … :  before the millennium 2000 Judeo-Christian celebration whence there were cries denouncing “rats” … cheesy … gia ba?o and chucky cheese …. SBTN Vietnamese TV News reports youngster in Vietnam modifiy/create a motorcycle to resemble a Batcycle from Batman movies ……. when he first came to the united states and attended J F Kennedy Jr. Highschool, to^nan  found a yankee-doodle … thanh so+n … or yankee ingenuity united states where many citizens took after the examples of Robert fulton and henry ford and Thomas Edison [LED spotlight bought for to^nddi.nh and di` ba co^ die^~m: invented by some guy with “huy`nh” name] … tinkerbells … in magazines such as popular mechanics etc. ….it seems everyone has a tinkering hobby everyone knows how to fix or can modify a car in Detroit… the “coomes” electronic parts store near chu’ ha^n co^ quye^n’s “Three sisters” grocery and “the buzzard” appliance part store that used to be by cemetary near ba` no^.i chu’ ha^n co^ quye^n but has since been moved to be near J F Kennedy Jr. Highschool would suggest that many americans attempt to fix their television and their refrigerator and their stoves and their clothing/dish washers themselves … … tinkerer Thomas Kenny  has an electronics laboratory at home besides his ibm job  … ingenuity is a way of “ddi cho bie^’t ddo’ bie^’t dda^y o+? nha` vo+’I me. bie^’t nga`y na`o kho^n” … and as well a way to live “see/hear/say no evil; have eyes/ears/mouths but as though cannot say” by virtue of narrow focusing on the hobby or creative activity … :  hoa ky` and trung hoa … same “hoa” …. and though china’s Great Wall would suggest an attempt at “independence” …. but … hoa ky` was founded upon ralph waldo emerson “Self-Reliance” … Su+. Ti’ch An Tie^m va` qua? du+a ha^’u ddo? that would illustrate the nature of dependency and self-reliance …. an tie^m’s claim of self-made was underwritten/supported by birds that drop watermelon seeds ….

[incidentally, father said “you can never know what i mean by ‘a pepper is ‘hot” unless you takes a bite of the pepper yourself” … there’s a new one born every minute meaning the wheel is re-invented every minute … also no matter how much they teach you about stay out of fire if you don’t want to get burn, inevitably sooner or later you pay the price for that piece of knowledge about fire yourself by getting burned somewhere sometime in eternity …

incidentally, the life behind the tinkering the bumbling–there’s nothing to be ashame of not knowing what you’re dealing with: “I am but mad north northwest ….”, TV’s bumbling detective Columbo, Inspector Gadget, bumbling inspector Clousseau of “The Pink Panther” … got pink at babies r us … : it is … because tinkering and bumbling support “unknowledge” life or the paradisical state of life before adam and eve bite into the apple of knowledge … because they support “see/hear/say no evil; have eyes/ears/mouths but as though cannot say” life: song “I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now … and still somehow it’s cloud/life illusion I recall … I really don’t know cloud/life ….”]

da(‘t di`u nhau va`o dde^’n ca` [cho+’n] mau: went to Babies R’ Us [on the radio in store billy joel “you have to have the last word last night” … note 3.4.2014] with ddi.nh die^~m and mother passed yanagi restaurant and passed the army base here in Dublin, California … and even though some laughed at to^nan and gia ba?o’s “tinkerbell” … “quack quack” toys …. the children shopping there all wanted to help heal/cure/save the world of its karma … indian child choose pirate ship transport/transform instead of automobiles to hide obvious karma …”I will be back” said a child resembling di` trinh and co^ hie^n … i’ll play doctor to you … you need food –she was not the only one who hinted at food another dude whose blond elders … perhaps mother with huge belly and father … had tattoos all over suggesting pirate ship cha`m/champa or pacific islander … tough guy outside but soft inside … reluctantly … because of his soft inside … a creator at heart … reluctantly very reluctantly and very very slowly very very softly … because of his soft inside … crushed some crispy food puff pulverizing it to powder … [3/7/2014: turns out this child prophesies/presages what ba’c Ty’ Gia Ba?o would do the following day at chinese dimsum place by kaiser hospital in pleasanton … namely crushed a whole peanut seed and dropped a plastic toy microphone near it …]–you need to go to the toilet … i’ll help … the problem is solved …

Korean War – HD-SN-99-03144

With her brother on her back a war weary Korean girl tiredly trudges by a stalled tank, at Haengju, Korea. June 9, 1951. Maj. R.V. Spencer, UAF. (Navy)

NARA FILE #: 080-G-429691

WAR & CONFLICT BOOK #: 1485

Cleared for public release. This image is generally considered in the public domain – Not for commercial use.

U.S. Army Korea – Installation Management Command

 

 

the cakeshop show on tv at pho+? ba` da^.u co^ng ly’ a few days ago that were doing the theme “shoes – women and men”: chu’ Ddi.nh and Catalina’s shoe shop in Michigan …

 

 

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today:  home alone with mother …. di` ba supposedly went to do health insurance for di` tu+ …

‎3/‎5/‎2014
tv: problems with phu+o+ng hu+o+’ng or some such: target chief resigned … gas [guess] explosion in development … etc.

da(‘t di`u nhau va`o dde^’n ca` [cho+’n] mau: went with “tu+” Die^.p to 99 ranch … she drove to^nan in her honda … so many crossroads for her it seems … though all the crossroads lead to the same … “tu+” Die^.p blew lots of money on nothing … ba’nh bao ba’nh bo` crab chicken leg blue cheese dressing sea weed salad and lottery ticket … contemplating whisky …

da(‘t di`u nhau va`o dde^’n ca` [cho+’n] mau: went to Babies R’ Us with ddi.nh die^~m and mother passed the army base here in Dublin, California …
Korean War – HD-SN-99-03144
With her brother on her back a war weary Korean girl tiredly trudges by a stalled tank, at Haengju, Korea. June 9, 1951. Maj. R.V. Spencer, UAF. (Navy)
NARA FILE #: 080-G-429691
WAR & CONFLICT BOOK #: 1485
Cleared for public release. This image is generally considered in the public domain – Not for commercial use.
U.S. Army Korea – Installation Management Command

Huynh dde^. brother and sister … and war machine …

the cakeshop show on tv at pho+? ba` da^.u co^ng ly’ a few days ago that were doing the theme “shoes – women and men”: chu’ Ddi.nh and Catalina’s shoe shop in Michigan …

3/4/2014

viettoday prof. quyen di and mint of various sorts … : week previous to^n an quoted some india indian saying meat is from dead animal while vegetables are alive plants … so consider the various implicaitions of that fact among a million other facts when eating/transporting yourself …
ye^’n in athletic dancer costume



ye^’n bought five boxes of duo^’c/ruo^’c dried shredded pork for mother from Eurasia – the Euro-Asia Grocerty store …
ye^’n bought five boxes of duo^’c/ruo^’c dried shredded pork for mother from Eurasia – the Euro-Asia Grocerty store …

singer sewing machine costume for gia ba?o’s “hot dog” pillow …
nothing-at-all pig’s feet for lunch … so give gia ba?o milk … and red bean bun … mother though did not have anything else … mother has been watching her weight it seems …
fever and cold feet for to^nan, … runny nose for gia ba?o …: he will go to park with his father thanh so+n … the windows were closed today … gia ba?o hugged his heart –see previous note previous case when di` ba yelled at him japanese style–chu’ hoa`ng supposedly telephoned father about having to go to the hospital to get medicine for arhythmia heart beats that sometimes are not regular …. [to^n an thought we have him to much beef steak which he had unquestioningly and anyway in to^n an’s experience arhythm is usually associated with manual focussing on something other than on “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng;everyone live long and well” and allowing, by letting go, muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng;everyone live long and well” to do its job naturally … [some are born into it; some focus/drive/earn/learn/achieve/will/love/ it; some have it thrust upon] … father said he would visit to^n va(n and to^n ddu+’c and have them drive him to visit chu’ hoa`ng … to^nan had a pang or two eating unquestioningly in fermilab chicago but once he got back on a mostly vegetable and rice regiment at home with mother’s cooking… father mentions too healthy leads to too much sex and food [and war probably …] …goldilock and the three bears … just enough or moderation [by sharing surplus etc.: di` ba told gia ba?o to share with ba’c ty’ food or some such …] is best … he’s quite all right though pangs of different sort are sometimes encountered … may gia ba?o chu’ hoa`ng and ” muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng;everyone live long and well” …
at any rate di` ba’s nothing-at-all pig’s feet have many supports: ye^’n going to the bathroom say “a(n nhie^`u i?a nhie^`u” and chu’ hoa`ng’s heart says “a(n nhie^`u something-at-all problem nhie^`u” … gia ba?o supports too but to^n an observed and felt sorry for him when we first got to california a few days he balked and reluctantly eat fatty stuff that are forced upon him by hard/harsh words by di` ba … must be gia ba?o knows nutrition instinctively … knows instinctively “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng;everyone live long and well” …
on way to to^n ddi.nh’s hospital to have supper nearby … di` ba die^~m mentions “tu+” or di` die^.p will be returning to vietnam for visit in a few weeks … said she broke up with her boyfriend about a year ago …

to^nan’s share of water “is it free?” “yeah yes it is …” from the rain wizardry from nieman marcus phillipine salesgirl … tagalog .. and japanese-ish islander salesgirl: to^nan must admit that, unless he would be unconscientious, he is must be grateful to the people at nieman marcus and at nordstrom … “i don’t know how you do what you do … I’m so amazed at you …” that he did not consciously include rain in california in his wishes/wizardry merely reporting on other people’s efforts … which is general “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” … and should have made it conscious …: so here it is … though tv kron 4 news and others suggested “so it seems that the miracle won’t work this year” … may california has rain water in the amount that will enable “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” …

nordstrom: billy jean and shoo cashier and dde`n ke’o qua^n and optical illusion confusion blouse and make up jane and no make up plain jane and gentleman under escalator…
“the door” restaurant across from where ddi.nh– who did not went to supper with us only to the mall with us– worked …. boring cat cat cat everything’s cat….[at walnut creek though it was twilight and the streetlights have come on, to^n an though he spotted a bus with the advertisement “we don’t consider stale pretzels a meal” before going to supper at “the door” restaurant … ]…. we bought carry-out for to^n ddi.nh who came across the street for it … to^n ddi.nh will be on-call with a student all night and won’t return until, at earliest, noon tomorow….
“(Just Like) Starting Over”
JOHN LENNON LYRICS
Our life together is so precious together,
We have grown – we have grown,
Although our love is still special,
Let’s take our chance and fly away somewhere alone,

It’s been so long since we took the time,
No-one’s to blame,
I know time flies so quikly,
But when I see you darling,
It’s like we both are falling in love again,
It’ll be just like starting over – starting over,

Everyday we used to make it love,
Why can’t we be making love nice and easy,
It’s time to spread our wing’s and fly,
Don’t let another day go by my love,
It’ll be just like starting over – starting over,

Why don’t we take off alone,
Take a trip far, far away,
We’ll be together on our own again,
Like we used to in the early days,
Well, well, well darling,

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/johnlennon/justlikestartingover.html

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blond girl with Russian-ish facial features in american-army-Arabian-sandy-brown American flag clothing at 99 ranch while gia ba?o slept in the car in the parking lot … “xin dda ta.” … but to^n an declines on suggestion by other people in the parking lot … later gia ba?o went inside and saw “ca’c ba.n” middle eastern girl about his size his age his height … and bought some hello kitty crackers … the Russian-ish girl came away from her table at restaurant inside 99 ranch …

 

yesterday we have nothing-at-all pig’s feet for supper …. : out of no where to^n an felt arouse and instead of viewing internet porn in response to the arousal he went and have some chinese bean pastry he bought from china town but no one wants … being then reminded how/but ye^’n brought home some meat-filled chinese pastry … and some ruo^’c dried shredded pork …

U.S. pledges $1 billion aid to Ukraine, condemns Russia

David Jackson, USA TODAY 8:38 p.m. EST March 4, 2014

(Photo: Saul Loeb, AFP/Getty Images)

Story Highlights

Secretary of State John Kerry is in Kiev for talks with new Ukraine government

Russian President Putin says he would not be deterred by economic sanctions

Obama repeats that Russia is violating international law

WASHINGTON — The Obama administration announced a $1 billion package of economic and energy aid to Ukraine on Tuesday, part of its emerging response to Russian military activity in Crimea.

President Obama, aides and allies are also considering a number of economic sanctions against Russia for its incursion into the Crimea region of Ukraine.

Again accusing Russian President Vladimir Putin of violating international law by sending troops to Crimea, Obama said Tuesday that Russia is weakening itself regionally and internationally.

“Countries near Russia have deep concerns and suspicions about this kind of meddling,” Obama said, predicting that its actions may “push many countries further away from Russia.”

The administration announced the $1 billion in loan guarantees for Ukraine as Secretary of State John Kerry landed in Kiev early Tuesday for talks with the new government.

Kerry said Putin could “de-escalate the situation” by pulling soldiers back “to the barracks” of bases Russia has long had in Ukraine, and by adhering to a long-standing agreement that limits the number of Russian troops in the region.

http://www.usatoday.com/story/news/2014/03/04/obama-russia-ukraine-1-billion-putin-crimea/6006759/

Europe

E.U. to Offer Aid to Ukraine as Russia and U.S. Set to Meet

By STEVEN ERLANGER and DAN BILEFSKYMARCH 5, 2014

A top European Union official said Wednesday that the group is prepared to offer an aid package to Ukraine worth as much as $15 billion over the next two years.

José Manuel Barroso, the president of the European Commission, the union’s executive arm, said Wednesday that the offer includes 1.6 billion euros, or about $2.2 billion, in loans and €1.4 billion euros in grants from the union, as well as €3 billion in fresh credit from the European Investment Bank.

The aid will buttress the $1 billion in loan guarantees that Secretary of State John Kerry pledged to Ukraine while visiting Kiev on Tuesday. The economic lifeline is expected to help Ukraine’s embattled interim government amid spiraling debts and the threat of rising Russian gas prices. The funds will also help cushion the blow as the International Monetary Fund is expected to demand tough austerity measures as a condition of its own expected aid package.

Mr. Barroso didn’t immediately provide details over the timing and conditions of the loans.

The interim government in Ukraine has said that it will need $35 billion in international assistance over the next two years.

The top diplomats of Russia and the United States are scheduled to meet later on Wednesday in Paris, with both sides sticking to their positions over the new government in Ukraine and the effective Russian occupation of Crimea.

The Russians regard the government in Kiev as illegitimate, while the Americans have embraced it; the Russians defend their actions in Crimea as a response to a request for aid from local citizens and from the ousted president Viktor F. Yanukovych. The Russians say that Mr. Yanukovych, for all his faults, remains the legitimate president of Ukraine.

With more diplomatic wrangling in the cards, the Americans are pressing for international observers from the Organization for Security and Cooperation in Europe, of which Russia is a member, to go to Crimea. The idea is to investigate whether threats to Russian-speaking citizens there are significant and to provide a reason for Russian troops to return to their barracks.

But there is no indication that Russia has any intention of releasing its grip on Crimea, the headquarters of the Russian Black Sea Fleet and a key southern port for the Russian military.

In Crimea, Russian troops, still in uniforms without insignia, continue to surround all key Ukrainian military facilities. Most of the Ukrainians have resisted calls to hand over their weapons and leave their bases, where they are effectively imprisoned.

There were reports on Wednesday that Russian troops had seized part of a Ukrainian missile defense unit in Yevpatoria, on the western coast of Crimea, but a local spokesman for Ukraine’s Defense Ministry told news agencies that the command post and control center of the base remain under Ukrainian control.

In the north of the Crimean Peninsula on the isthmus near the Ukrainian mainland, northwest of Armyansk, Russian troops with 10 [sobering fact: only 10] large trucks have set up a roadblock and are checking documents and cars. Two Russian flags fly over the roadblock and journalists are being told to keep away.

http://www.nytimes.com/2014/03/06/world/europe/ukraine.html

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