3/11/2014

yesterday: monday blues …. [by the way, there were times past where to^nan never have the monday blues originating from the drama of the work pattern of americans … monday angst friday and the weekend down the path of letting go partying until nausea …then monday blues pays off consequences of partying until nausea …: to^nan never experience the monday blues thence because he continue to work one way or another by never letting go of the focus/aim …. such as the aim for “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” …] … cleaning the dust laden fan of ye^’n and die^.p’s room and washing their carpet …

to^nan said of gia ba?o tha–similar to how gia ba?o snuff out the ant …. shark on finding nemo don’t eat other fish in nature unless they are hungry and/or the other fish is bleeding and would suffer less if eaten– to^nan prefers “nature” over “nurture” …. that to^nan would rather that gia ba?o is ngoan ngoa~n by himself naturally rather than having to be “schooled” … such as by americans or by mexicans …. kho^n ngoan dda’ dda’p ngu+o+`i ngoa`i ga` cu`ng mo^.t me. cho+’ hoa`i dda’ nhau … citing how thie^n hu+o+ng shed “misbehaving” [her bicycle] around the american “mike” seems doesn’ t even dare to look at him straight in the face .. . or how mexican flores teaches tate and ella how to create a mess ba`y ve~ then afterward to clean up the mess they’ve just made … but, of course, “nature” over “nurture” is not the only one for the american and the mexican …. some form of avoiding jealousy and/or ta^m/trinity/conscience fulfillment with other members of the family or of society or something other might be behind it all …

shades of thu and va(n divorce: blew up on to^n ddi.nh [‎3/‎25/‎2014 it’s been coming: di` ba co^ Die^~m said how chi. hai in vietnam had just bought a new house and everyone did such a good job of maintaining it “goes to show you that when people realizes that it’s theirs, they don’t mind cleaning up and maintaining it” … also bought toilet bowl cleaner for ye^’n and die^.p’s bathroom … tv or media must have suggested “give a man a fish you can feed him for one night; give a man a fishing rod and teaches him to fish and you can feed him forever” …] what “mac daddy” and “dda.t” [3/25/2014 who is suggestive of Pak Ming Ho: to^nan blew up on way to Chicago shortly before graduation for the millennium celebration: new York city world trade center blew up when to^nan visited there and after he left it] blew up on us at the bars in walnut creek … what waitress at dimsum place blew up on to^nan…. “he’s a pimp” “are you gone live like this together” …. “tu+” Die^.p might have suggested she “blew” also in various shades of meaning … to^n and treats everyone from presidents to common man/woman from all parts of life pretty much the same “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” … but in the following terms: “take time to make time: if they use the bathroom they should spend 5 minutes on it and to^nan will spend 5 minutes or more to match …” …. all fit gia ba?o anyway who has a tough decision if indeed he would stand up to his name of gia ba?o … in that ba’c ty’ thanh so+n ye^’n di` ba “tu+” etc. all should be kept in their proper places for the “gia” of gia ba?o …

today:

“saved” a worm [were “em/m”] from hot tub …  : german “Hach” water testing equipment have arrived for a while …

gia ba?o expressed he misses school … this that and other things …

[3/19/2014 need for or existence of boundaries/soul/seol:

Programmer’s Reference Manual suggests that protected mode implement various “stack-like” structure for push-pop-ing protected structures via descriptor tables such as GDT, IDT, etc.

; SAFEWAY grocery …

%macro SAFECALL 1

; cmp SP, stacksegment

; jl safecallinterrupt

; safecallinterrupt int 5

bound SP, stacklowerbound + 4 + 4 ;

call %1

%endmacro

%macro SAFEPUSH 1

; cmp SP, stacksegment

; jl safecallinterrupt

; safepushinterrupt int 5

bound SP, stacklowerbound + 4 + 4 ;

push %1

%endmacro

%macro SAFEPOP 1

; cmp SP, stacksegment

; jl safecallinterrupt

; safepopinterrupt int 5

bound SP, stacklowerbound + 4 + 4 ;

pop %1

%endmacro

%macro SAFERET 1

; cmp SP, stacksegment

; jl safecallinterrupt

; saferetinterrupt int 5

bound SP, stacklowerbound + 4 + 4 ;

ret %1

%endmacro

]

blew up on gia ba?o …. what to^nan blew: “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” … which is what to^nan tried to shore/store up all night along with the many trips to the bathroom last night … “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” … evident of blew/spent it all is that blewing “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” on gia ba?o and gia ba?o had left the house his could felt his energy is no longer concentrated as efficiently or effectively on “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” …

after getting a blood test die^~m bring gia ba?o to san jose and said her family won’t be coming back …. ddi.nh said she cried all night –to^nan went to the bathroom starting when the frogs yelled and wished “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” all night” …

clean stairway …

anh ddo^’ng telephoned mother ….

thanh so+n did help us wash dishes after supper … and ye^’n and die^.p did put up with sleeping in room with fan full of dust for many days … gia ba?o had his mother at night and his father on the weekend and 5-6 hours evening everyday … other children’s parents work all day sometimes all week without seeing them and at proper age they are in school all day … gia ba?o had same amount of toys as dda.t’s child as tate and ella as thie^n hu+o+ng …

Lyrics to Love Child :

by The Supremes

You think that I don’t feel love
But what I feel for you is real love
In other’s eyes I see reflected
A hurt, scorned, rejected
Love child, never meant to be
Love child, born in poverty
Love child, never meant to be
Love child, take a look at me
I started my life
in an old, cold run down tenement slum
My father left, he never even married mom
I shared the guilt my mama knew
So afraid that others knew I had no name
This love we’re contemplating
Is worth the pain of waiting
We’ll only end up hating
The child we maybe creating
Love child, never meant to be
Love child, scorned by society
Love child, always second best
Love child, diff’rent from the rest
Mm, baby
I started school,
in a worn, torn dress that somebody threw out
I knew the way it felt, to always live in doubt
To be without the simple things
So afraid my friends would see the guilt in me
Don’t think that I don’t need you
Don’t think I don’t wanna please you
No child of mine ‘ll be bearing
The name of shame I’ve been wearing
Love child, love child, never quite as good
Afraid, ashamed, misunderstood
But I’ll always love you
I’ll always love you
I’ll always love you
I’ll always love you, you, you

http://www.lyricsmania.com/love_child_lyrics_supremes_the.html

3/13/2014 di` Ba did laundry today and assume Gia Ba?o’s job of throwing toys–in this case railroad sections–everywhere in the house …. or at least in the laundry …

To^nAn had no problem with Gia Ba?o messing up but perhaps if Gia Ba?o plays cool in the balance clean up also … obama … cover both father and mother… and in fact To^nAn observe that toys do get put away … whether by Gia Ba?o or not is unclear but they do get clean up and not by him … so … someone is “balancing” …

and the ‘balancing’ is external evidence of to^nan, and gia ba?o and di` ba and thanh so+n and ye^’n and “tu+” and “honey” and “ba`” that all along everyone had meant well … everyone had aim/meant for “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” …

“Baby Love”

Ooh baby love, my baby love
I need you, oh how I need you
But all you do is treat me bad
Break my heart and leave me sad
Tell me, what did I do wrong
To make you stay away so long

‘Cause baby love, my baby love
Been missing ya, miss kissing ya
Instead of breaking up
Let’s do some kissing and making up
Don’t throw our love away
In my arms, why don’t you stay?

Need ya, need ya
Baby love, ooh, baby love

Baby love, my baby love
Why must we seperate, my love
All of my whole life through
I never loved no one but you
Why you do me like you do?
I get this need

Ooh, ooh, need to hold you
Once again, my love
Feel your warm embrace, my love
Don’t throw our love away
Please don’t do me this way
Not happy like I used to be
Loneliness has got the best of me

My love, my baby love
I need you, oh how I need you
Why you do me like you do
After I’ve been true to you
So deep in love with you

Baby, baby, ooh till it’s hurtin’ me
Till it’s hurtin’ me
Ooh, baby love
Don’t throw our love away
Don’t throw our love away
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/supremes/babylove.html

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