1/20/2014
maze and blue truck pulled nothing except made gia ba?o recognized it’s the cat sand mover similar to one he has been playing with this morning in the sandpile inside a frog ddi.nh poured for him this morning … and went to sleep …
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peanuts
linus linux and schroeder …
ikea…”tu’p le^`u ly’ tu+o+?ng” or ecologically-supportable habit for humanity [versus bieber’s mansion on inside edition … which also mentioned guy who handed out hundreds or thousand dollars tips just before to^nan sent out christmas gifts of fruit to relatives …] … “dutch treat” [previous visit to Women’s Health Department of Pleasanton’s Kaiser Permanente had To^n An went to the men’s room then returned in a hurry that his underwear is not on straight giving himself a “dutch treat” by himself … which one of the patient with a nga^`u tattoo on her ankle expressed by her tu`m tu’m luo^.m thuo^.m ddu`m baggy bottom … there might have been a patient suggestive of humanity professor who taught To^nAn existentialism “facing the void” … “… how does it feel to be a complete unknown …”… well the indian husband suggestive of our robert neighbor or gandhi or albert einstein smiled appeasingly at his wife … “hello darkness my old friend I came to speak wity you again …” … opening the car door for her to receive her on a wheel chair home from the hospital “please, … I beg of you … forgiveness … “… ] …. colonial design, japanese perfect circle design, black and white perfect lines design [audrey’s line rider], hindu twisty 3-dimensional loops trying to moderate transition from circle to line …. they say “it’s a thin line between …” song “everyman of mine better walk the line ” to mean “be careful ….” [e.g. be careful don’t break the glasses displayed … symmetry breaking …]….. queen elizabeth and her prince …. wild child and her inner not-wild child …. song ” child of the sun and the deep blue sea” … gia ba?o said “con quy?” in loving terms meaning he means the opposite australian upside down …
deja vu [de gia ba?o] …. michael jackson mexican child …. hong kong east coast restaurant …photograph die^~m and an — putting two and two together by third ddi.nh ….
[to^nan remembers that before going to california father wants to read ‘journey to the west’ and that di` khanh–1/22/14 owner of pho+? place– had given to^n an a copy of it in vietnam before we went to america and that chi. chi’nh had shown him drawings of einstein’s general relativity geodesics and co-ordinate system in vietnam 30 years before to^nan read einstein’s original and that a robber child had stolen to^nan’s goldfish in vietnam before chu’ robert kha came to give him and his family a lift to america … … all these things seem to be premonition or prediction or plan for things to come and yet they do not have to be because any given moment of space-time has convolved into it–so quoted the frontispiece to the irish novel “trinity” here in dublin california– the past, the present, the future the whole of eternity …,]
cat sand mover on the way back pointed out by ddi.nh ..
Gia Ba?o or maybe Audrey Thie^n Hu+o+ng movies … smooth transition of power means to various extent “it doesn’t matter because whatever happen here you are” … it’s a no-escape conserved world of “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” … everyman a father, husband, friend, …. everywoman a mother, wife, friend …..: “one fine day” [gia ba?o danced vu~ for laura from fermilab after his ice cream cone got broken into two ga~y … symmetry breaking or hidden symmetry ….: today second time at Women’s Health the nurse previously had flower on her hair had a different flower on her hair … song “… if you’re going to San Francisco, be sure to put some flower on your hair …” …. ne^n ho`a ….] … “you’re gone want me for your girl….”, “the prime minister and I [the night/to^’I and I/to^i]” … “when she [parapazi reporter] hugged me I felt good” said child of divorced parent on her would-be substitute mother…, “bring it on: fight to the finish [struggle to have conscience to have enough [previously at Women’s Health, woman in black allegedly suggestive of co^ Va^n ca^.u Nghie^m was the one with everything … scholar eyeglasses, sexy do clothing and high heal, belly “full”/”fool” with child, etc. indicating having things from both sides of the border …. she was followed by a woman in black also suggestively resembling native american woman–there were many resembling native american that day men and women though they were customers of taiwanese chinese 99 ranch–giving out sausage samples on a toothpick … suggesting that no’i va^.y ma` kho^ng pha?i va^.y … it ain’t the whole story … meaning the “enough” or “everything” you saw in woman at Women’s Health is because she only had a small sample of “everything” and not “everything” itself …. just a dimsum sample ….]: “ba tha^’y con {ta`i} gio?i <go?i ngo’ sen to^m> kho^ng …..” … because a few days ago Gia Ba?o said ba’c Ty’ saw tu?i tha^n la` ba’c Ty’ chu+a co’ ddu? lu+o+ng ta^m ba(`ng Gia Ba?o ..] …
dream of slaving under professors ….
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in the morning, die^~m had stomach pain again and we went to Women’s Health again ….
“It’s [head] is so tiny … ” ….. dimsum sample … said head nurse suggestive of Martha Stewart …
“gotcha” she said to child dude suggestive of Rick Steves … another child dude came in with his patient mother had acnide around his eyes expressed tu?i tha^n [“because their children are not well because of tu?i tha^n …”] … another child in blood lab ba`y ve~ ma’u … draw blood … with co^ Trinh feature and indian [at Women’s Health was guy suggestive of Hawaii native american indian “It’s not easy to get rid of …” with wife with child “congratulation it’s cute baby”] man with sword expressed jealous or tu?i tha^n out of being “blind” or “unconditional love” …. co^ Die^.p in fuzzy pattern dress today … so To^nAn asked her to erase the fuzzy pictures he made of her by the christmas tree … while co^ Ye^’n want others to be blind not seeing underneath masks and hats …
speakers ddi.nh ordered arrived from ups guy and pool guy came by …. jealous …
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1/22/2014
more tu?i tha^n …. self-image problems … very opposite of “you’re so vain you probably think this song is for you don’t you” problem …
gia ba?o “ba?o to^`n chi’nh nghi~a”: chi’nh nghi~a is “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well”: each and every/all sayings mean “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” …
to^n ddi.nh got a madonna cd around …. her self-image song “…Until I learned to love myself
I was never ever lovin’ anybody else …”
If—
(‘Brother Square-Toes’—Rewards and Fairies)
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;
If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings—nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it, [british neighbor irish song “there’s a love that’s divine and it’s yours and it’s mine….” in dublin california ]
And—which is more—you’ll be a Man, my son!
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Source: A Choice of Kipling’s Verse (1943)
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indian and chinese/japanese enjoying gentlemen and jewish gray hair gentleman not enjoying exchange positions at the pho+? restaurant becomes …. “whoa!” double “hoa” mannequin [there was a small toy or art one at the ikea store near the cashier] at the mall …: movie mannequin …. and pygmalion …. pig mall lion …. if you love it enough it becomes alive …. ca^y ngo.c lan and ca^y lan … baby cried out of need for attention or tu?i tha^n then cried out of pride of tha^n cuteness then angry then laughter … dda.t garbage guy at the hospital …
we’re late [black dude nurse “be cool” sonogram nurse “be calm”] to the hospital because an stayed up all night today in car of co^ Die^.p who eyed an’s coffee she made him once … : clean cinderella her bathroom today as well as ddi.nh and die^~m and mother …
peace [rabbit ears rather on iphone and in ear of nelson mandela statue] and graceful wellness … trang ddo^~ at mall and on viettoday … baby sonogram “here I cinderella am” image or self-image… ….. viettoday commercial “phong thu?y vi die^.u” & “co+m ta^’m thie^n hu+o+ng” … bonding with the men at the hospital waiting room becomes Vie^.t Dzu~ng and nha^n quye^`n …
bonding is interrupted by neck/naked being pulled every which way … very beautiful woman in white worshipping viet dung on viettoday …
pho+? …. restaurateur suggestive of di` Khanh left when we came …. advice ,,,, mother’s mirror sonogram of sort at clothing store in the mall [cinderella self-image problem is resolved by facing the void –guy resembling humanity professor came out when we came in–and recognize “you are what you are i am what i am, there are no bad guys there are no good guys there are only you and me and we simply are different/unique {for all the uniqueness, all are beautiful and well and live long though … fanfare for the common man/woman at the mall …. everyone ‘s beautiful …}” …. things-as-they-are … existentialism … each and everything are beautiful and has no self-image problem it is only when things are brought together such as when two hands are clapped together that pain and therefore self-image problems become the hands or the things …] …. beautiful and handsome people at the mall …. messy mens’ room ….song on pa system “told you it’s messy” christy … beautiful young woman with tattoo arm … slaving [and professor Longo: gia ba?o shuts door to room and said bad/evil words that his father said to avoid …: to^nan tries hard to mind his own business having no blames and don’t mind–because the Noble Truths exist so that as long as Gia Ba?o or other knows it’s nothing personal he/she and the left hand did not mean it and i and the right hand did not mean it but sometimes God clapped and the left hand comes together with the right hand and made pain and the Noble Truths become he/she/i/all– how people want to dress up their conversation with blames and such [self-image , other-image or any image problems is caused by not minding your own business–waitress resembling co^ Va^n and waiter resembling ca^.u Nghie^m at dimsum restaurant advice–by “see/hear/say evil”: dhammapada “they blame him/her who says little they blame him/her who says much they blame him/her who says nothing or who says just enough: no one is without blame” … the blame is because of Perpetual Motion keeping things moving from one thing to another from past to present to future and back to the past again …. the attraction of cavemen, archaelogical relics, classic cars and tube amplifiers …] …salinger’s “all his faculty in tact” … friend robert acquerelli might have made fun of the professors such as how they wag or people who drew wigs on their department pictures … but to^n an [“sunset boulevaard” song “… billy…wonder if he ever has fun in his life … until the sun comes up on santa monica boulevaard”: filipino tv chanel discuss manila or some such skyway plans … ] have always have respect–even when angry … “personal” is “respect” is “behind closed doors face to face so as no behind your back misunderstanding so that it does not spread where it’s misunderstood like a plague”…–and wellness in mind for his professors… and for ibm for that matter {even when in anger}… to^nan wishes his professors {and ibm for that matter} and “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” …and vice versa To^nAn is sure his professors wish him similarly afterall they considered to^nan a part of the family e.g. introducing to^nan to the professor’s son and unmarried doctor daughter which might be a good marriage match …. dr ddi.nh and gia ba?o and di` Die^.p …. so much reminding to^nan of his childhood and trying to help di` Khanh find a husband … certainly the professors and ibm and gia ba?o and die^.p etc. also wish to^n an and “muo^n loa`i ddu+o+.c so^’ng la^u bi`nh thu+o+`ng; everyone live long and well” ….. .]
northeast has a terrible snow storm …
father said co^ nga came visit him be grateful for gift for cung guess and has lecture on buddhism …
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